To Wonder

Just because sometimes I wonder doesn't mean it will necessarily come true. For all I know you could meet someone better, someone closer. Someone you don't have to travel 1 000km to hold hands with. Someone who doesn't have the same insecurities as I have. Someone you can hold at night. Sometimes I wish I was that person. All I know is that I may never meet you. For all I know there could be someone better out there. Someone better equipped to love you. Someone who isn't afraid to hold your hand in public. For all I know you already met someone like this. For all I know I could be that person. For all I know I could die tomorrow. For all I know I could break your heart or you mine. Sometimes its nice to wonder, to dream, to imagine all the possibilities. Sometimes its nice to wonder that I could hold your hand. Sometimes in nice to wonder.

Sometimes those dreams become nightmares. Sometimes you're holding someone else's hand. Sometimes you are laughing and smiling at someone that isn't me. Sometimes I wonder, maybe I am not good enough. Sometimes I wonder will you actually wait, will you actually come, will I ever get to meet you. I can dream, I can wonder but sometimes reality kicks in. Reality becomes my worst nightmare and my only escape is my dreams and then sometimes those aren't enough. Sometimes I wish you were my escape. I wish you were my dreams. I wish you were my reality. Sometimes I wonder that whenever we talk, what do you tell your friends? Do you think I'm crazy? Do they think I'm not real because sometimes I don't think you're real.

Sometimes you just seem too perfect to be real. Sometimes I wish you are real. I wish I could hold your hand, I wish I could play with your hair. I wish I could lie in your arms, so many wishes. How many of them will come true? How many will die with me? How many will die before they can even become a reality? Is there enough time? Is there a reality where you and I work out? Is there a reality where I don't have to lie in my bed and dream? Dream of the things that could be. All of the words that could be said. Over all the things that could happen in reality.

Reality

Reality

Imagination

Dreams

Wishes

Reality

Reality

I never did get to meet you, get to hold you, get to love you. You found someone better and all those wishes and dreams died when I lost you. Maybe I wasn't good enough for you.

But I am good enough

Seth ( ; )