Unappreciated

Why is it that when I'm doing my most to be thoughfull it's when I feel that I'm coming across as intrusive, annoying, controlling. It's as if I'm hard wired to fail when I'm trying my best to succeed.

I have watched and learned, listened and taken notes on your subconscious mood indicators so that I can best understand your needs and wants.

I'm perceived as a stalker, creepy, or too attentive.

When I do the opposite and do minimal effort when attending your please, I'm cold, unyielding.

The spectrum of my attention is either too much or not enough. Those, who's thought patterns don't diverge into multiples, are quite satisfied with a divergent thought process.

When I can tell that, while you are irritated; your current complaint isn't the source of your irritation. The small indicators that you prefer one spoon to another, favorites.

The thoughts are many and develove into fits of self critique, but each one has a main focus.

How can I better show my appreciation for your continued presence in my life.